Your Attitude and my rebellion

You think that you know people, then they turn their backs on you.

You think that you want them in your life and then realise that they don't deserve to be there in the first place.

If I had a penny for everytime I thought about hurting you, I would be a very rich lady.

I thought you were a cute girl that had a low self esteem because of the way your mum treated you.

Now I realise it's because no one wants you. I don't like being around you. I hate seeing your face when I look across at you at a restaurant. You are trying to control me, this is not good enough. How dare you decide that I am going to be your slave or your girlfriend? What does it matter that I have other friends? WHO ACTUALLY LIKE ME. They don't try to change me or tell me that I look fat.

I bought the most amazing dress yesterday and I look a million dollars in it and you wouldn't have even come into the goddamn store with me. When I told you about the black man at the leadership program, you turned up your nose in disgust, telling me that you could not see us together! Well I don't give a flying fuck, because you're an insane bitch! I sometimes wish that I could put you in a well and throw rocks down to hit you, hopefully stopping your cries of fear and misery. Then you would realise that there is more to life than just you! Because you're a fucking bitch!

There used to be a time and a place where I could count on you for emotional support and help. I realise that this was a long time ago. I have changed in that time, I have learnt the skills to deal with your kind and how you treat others. I am writing this in the Griffith University Library on the 23rd of July 2010. I am completing two exams today and I am expecting to fail Nutrition. Introduction to Research was this morning at 8.30am and I had a lift up with Allie and Jes, the fourth year planners that I know. They are beautiful girls that are worth my time! I am glad that I met them when I did.

Also I saw Becky yesterday at three beans when I was with Nathan and Sophie, I hope the bitch dies an awful and horrible death slowly. If there wasn't any people, cameras or any chance of gettting caught I would kill the bitch with thousands of forks, starting by stabbing her in the eyeballs then the vagina and then cutting off her boobs. Seriously do not like that girl, nor do I think I ever will.

Just at uni - procrastinating about the exam, nothing too exciting apart from the hippy next to me - she is an environmental student. You can tell by the horrible oversized clothing, the messy hair, the solemn look and the lack of care that she takes of herself. Not to mention the "name that flower" book that she is holding onto for dear life and the "Save the Environment" lanyard that is attached to the computer via a usb stick.

I assume she is a second year which is depicted by her items of food, her 2057 Botany course reader and the attitude that she is taking to facebook. First years don't bring food and they try to stay off facebook in fear that they should be doing something else. Pretty sure that everyone hates first years. Purely because they wander around and think that they know what they are doing or at least pretend to.